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Post by RITABEE * on Sept 9, 2009 19:46:51 GMT 1
Ever heard the expression actions speak louder than words, well it is true. If those words are beyond intolerable and just down right cruel then yes they do speak louder. What if those words is the reason she felt so alone and lost in this world, the reason the cried herself to sleep. No one saw this vulnerability as she lived her whole life like this, hiding from her true self, haunted by the voices of the corridor. She begged for it to all go away for months, her parents couldn’t hear her silent cries, sitting around that old oak table, the hurt shown in her eyes, but no one listened. That was the moment when she thought there was no further reason for her to be living.
So she took a few pills as she was desperate to make this ache in her heart fade away and as she swallowed she lies down in her small single bed, curling up in a ball, wanting to sleep forever, to gaze among the stars, to be free.
Her body soon became weak, her vision blurring.
And in the end, those appalling and despiteful words spoke louder than ever before, unlike the last sounds her heart made.
If she could have only seen, that it really does get better, and everything is going to be ok, if you keep fighting and living then maybe she would have seen that. The pain she must have gone through was more than any of us could imagine. My heart goes out to her family, and closest friends through this time of hurt may the tears we shed, or the words we speak allow people to see what cruelty does to others, and I hope that Taylor is in that better place, though none of us wanted her to go that soon.
Taylor Londres, one of the many victims to the horror of bullying.
to a good friend of mine, may her soul rest in peace. 1992 - 2009
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Post by abby nicole bradford on Sept 9, 2009 20:38:52 GMT 1
aw. ritabee. im so sorry.
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Post by jennifer danielle novak on Sept 9, 2009 20:54:35 GMT 1
i am so incredibly sorry for you, rita. i want to say i know how you feel, but i dont. i have had friends attempt and fail, but never successfully have they taken their own life. i know it must have been hard for her, for ive been bullied before. "She's wishing all this would end and she's gonna try to take her own life again. Wait! I know your heart's been shattered. But there's someone worth the wait. There's so much more that matters; And I know you will be alright, just try to love the little things in life like running in the rain.." i really wish she could be here to read that. i am so terribly sorry for your loss, rita. i truly am. she is in a much better place now, though. this can only show how truly cruel this world is now.
just remember baby (and i call you this in a serious and non homo way) - smile and keep living. it is what taylor wants you to do. |
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